Start to Change

When I started to change my medication

I was a young mother wondering how long it would be before my medications put me on the operating table. I was worried who would take care of my children if I ended up needing an organ transplant. How drastically the lives of my family members would change if I were no longer here. For me the medications began to become scary with the unknown possibilities.

My thinking about the medication not being good for me started when I was getting tired of taking them every time I was in pain. Since I had to take them every time I was in pain I realized they were doing nothing to change my medical diagnosis. There was not going to come a day that I would no longer need the medication if I stayed on it. I did not like that bleak look at hope.

What I used instead of medication at first

I wanted more, more play time with the kids, more endurance, more better days. Moving my body when I wanted to and for as long as I wanted to was and is very important to me. I was thirty-years-old the day I was finally diagnosed. There was no way I was ready to say, “I will now live my life in a chair in severe pain everyday.” If my family is any indication as to how long I may live, I will live to be at least ninety-years-old. There is no way I am going to spend the next sixty-years of my life sitting in one thing or another. Just trying to get through the day.

So in order to live I decided to stop the medications which caused me to turn to alcohol. The with drawl pain on my body from the medications was severe and although I had no idea which was better, the medications or a shot or two an evening. I thought my odds seemed better with alcohol for the time being. Just until I could figure out what else to do. I did not like either the medications nor the alcohol so do not think I am trying to steer you that way. I just had no idea how to live without some immediate pain relief at that time. By the time evening came around I had it, the pain was making me cry and that would freak out my husband.

Changing for the better

Then a doctor told me I should get back on the medication for the pain because alcohol inflames us which brings on the pain in chronic pain illnesses. I was determined to not use the medications any way I could. But I knew neither me nor my husband were happy about the alcohol either. I decided then to start limiting how often I would have a drink.  My first goal I made to myself was taking alcohol away every other night. With my husbands support I took a lot more baths after we ate dinner.

He would get the kids ready for bed while I took a bath. In my bathwater I would put with 15 drops of lavender oil, 2 cups Epsom salt, and 1/2 a cup of baking soda. To detox you must stay in your bath for 20 minutes. So I would take a nice book or a meditation from my iPod. I like Meditation Oasis the voice of Mary Maddux and the music in the background made me a true fan of their work. On their website they do have a mini break meditation for seven minutes if you would like to hear what Mary Maddux sounds like. This is where you can find the mini meditation. 

After I was doing the baths every other evening I noticed, on those nights I could sleep better. I would wake up in the morning feeling better physically and mentally. I talked to my husband about me taking a bath every evening and he agreed, of course.

The change did not come quickly

The change took a while. As a mother I have found it impossible to stay on a routine when it comes to taking care of myself. Someone or something always needs us, right!? With my husbands help I do always know that taking care of myself does matter. My children are a little older now, no more babies needing everything done for them. Life has become easier that way.

I stopped using the alcohol in the place of medication in 2016, I was diagnosed early 2014. I did not just one day say that is it no more drinking until April of 2017. So it took three years for me to realize because of Fibro I could never drink again. Because of the pain it would caused. Not only does alcohol cause more pain but Fibromyalgia is known for making our response to alcohol as almost instantly drunk. That is what did it for me. I quit drinking alcohol even socially in 2017 because to me, being drunk is not fun. Especially when you have only had a sip or two.

After 2017

In 2017 a very rough year, I changed a lot. My diet, how I care for my Fibromyalgia, stopped all alcohol, those all changed for me in one year. While I was at home all alone with three kids because my husband was deployed. I hope to find many more wonderful changes in my beautiful mostly pain-free life. I never know if my Fibromyalgia will become even worse than it is today but today I am grateful for less pain. So when I do start feeling tons of pain I reach for my bathtub. I reach for my meditations and my treadmill. Movement and complete relaxation were my first natural friends. I continue to use them to this day. I hope you find your path too.

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